Oct 16.

10/16/2025 11:18. Correspondence 59

I started the podcast S-town. It is for my principles of journalism class. I am halfway through episode 2. I am dreadfully sad. I can't see anything but lost hope and despair, and I know it only will get worse. 

So that's where you find me now. 

Complicated and lost in my own mind. 

I hate these moods. I have been so trapped in an emotion. It is like a virus my body tries to fight. It appears and spreads and consumes me. Sometimes my body is able to fight it off. I say sometimes, but I really mean often. Or at least I would like to think often. At other times, I get infected and contract a fever of spirit and mind. A fog of identity. An ache of listlessness. A pitiful cough of self-worth. 

I take my medicines, I do. And it usually passes.

A shame it is still that I miss moments I could be enjoying the day. A shame it leaves me so uncontented and unappreciative of the things I have. Wanna know the worst part about my current feeling? I had some really great moments today. I met new friends, I got to learn about new cultures, I got to work on creative projects, and I got to learn new things. 

But all those impressions leave me now. For I lay in my sick bed. With fever, fog, aches, and a cough. Hopeing to get well soon. 

Goodnight dear freinds 

Calvin Landreth.