Dec. 1

12/01/2025 9:51 Correspondence 104

It's been too long, friends, and it's about to get longer. Back from a lovely Thanksgiving break. Back into the thick of it. Back into the strange, surreal feeling of those all too long weeks between Thanksgiving and Christmas. As I was backdating my missed holiday entries, I limited missing my 100th post, but also appreciated the coincidence that my 100th post fell exactly on Thanksgiving. What are the chances? 

Today has been interesting, long, uneventful, slow, and anxious. Got feedback on my news story first draft. Let's just say I'll need a second. I got more information on my Mandarin exam, not as bad as I thought. I got my butt handed to me in fencing. I was quite rusty after two weeks. And I explored the possibility of Open Broadcaster Software (OBS). It is remarkable, and it is motivating me to start creating more personal projects again. Keep updated on that. 

You know, I thought I would have more to say tonight. And I think I did. But I lost it all. I lost those thoughts rattling around in my brain as soon as I started typing. I think my mind is elsewhere. It has been elsewhere. It feels like it is lagging one event behind. In my first class, I was thinking about the terrible night's sleep. In my second, I was thinking about the first. And so on and so on. Even now, I'm so caught up in focusing on all the little things that discouraged me, I am finding it difficult to focus on the keys in front of me. And I know as soon as I finish this, I will be thinking of all the things I could have said to make this better, be they profound or silly. always just one event behind. How do you recover an hour? How do you resynk yourself to the day? I'm frankly not sure. Maybe it's as simple as a good night's rest.

If only that were so simple.

Goodnight, 

Calvin Landreth